For my new readers - here's a quick run down of my personal life from semi adult to now.
-Married 1991 (16)
-Gave birth to Krystal 1993 (19)
-Divorced 1997 (23)
-Remarried 1997 (23)
-Gave birth to Sterling 1998 (24)
-Gave birth to Roman 2000 (26)
-Divorced 2001 (27)
...and I've been single since then...I'm now 38 and I would have never thought I'd be single for 12 years. For the most part I haven't really noticed. I mean, I've been hopping through the everyday highs and lows of being a single mom. I must say though - parenting has been simpler alone...only because you just make a decision and go with it. There is no debate or checking to make sure someone else agrees....well not with my ex's anyway. I have no idea if this is how it is with other single parents and their ex spouses/ partners. AND for the last several years, since the kids are older they are so much fun to do things with. BUT the flip side of that is, they also do their own things with their friends and come and go and I have more time by myself. WHICH has led me to think about the things I liked about being in a relationship. Such as...someone holding me while I sleep...kisses...adult conversation and perspective...another income to help with bills and responsibilities and working as a team towards something larger....and other things...if ya know what I mean ;)
Now, I'm sure you must be saying 'Renee, why don't you just start dating?' The logical answer.. BUT there are some issues. I've been online dating since 2006 and I've met lots of guys but no one who really clicked with me. I've met guys out and about but nothing special. The most recent is Speed Dating, I'm just getting my feet wet.
I've learned through these experiences that I've been single so long that I'm
not sure I even know how to integrate a man back into my life. Me and bestie were having this conversation earlier in the week > I blissfully enjoy things like my sewing, yarn craft, reading, going out with the kids, skating, etc SO I don't want to stop my fun activities to pursue someone that may not be any fun at all..LOL I told Candy - I think it will have to be a freak accident or someone that I already know is cool.
The boys try to push me onto everyone - if we run into someone while we're out - when we get in the car they will say 'Mom! did you like him? you should date him!'...I think they are just so missing having some man energy in the house.
With all this being said....I don't want to die an old maid. I have lots of love to give and I want to be loved. I'm considering consulting with a tarotpsychofortunistic type to just see if it's in my cards and if not then I'll just forget about and stay engulfed in my little crafty playful world.
Does anyone else, any single parents out there have these or have had the experiences?? Am I alone in the plight? hee hee
I'd love to hear any thoughts or recommendations (or if you have any single, hottie friends or relatives lol)